In a Funk

I’m usually very focused but not so much the last few days.  I don’t like this feeling.  It’s kinda like myself is a few steps ahead of me and I keep trying to catch her and I can’t quite get back inside my own skin and get myself back in sync.  What do you think I should do?  Another vacation?  A trip to Louisiana?

When I got up this morning, I decided to do some serious cleaning.  That should have been my first clue that whatever has hold of me is serious and I need help quickly!  I’m a terrible housekeeper.  I can sweep and mop and vacuum around rugs forever but this morning, I picked up every rug in this house (upstairs only), swept, mopped, vacuumed, put the rugs back; vacuumed the stairs which I hate to do; cleaned out both fridges . . that’s a lot of housework for someone like me who avoids it as much as possible.

I went downstairs this afternoon and sat down at my sewing machine and never did sew.  I stared at the wall; I stared at the sewing machine; finally gave up and turned off the machine.

Could it be spring fever?  Maybe.  After being in Arkansas last week and seeing so much rural rea, my heart yearns to live out in the country.  I’m not even sure that living in the country is what I really want to do . . I think I just want to go back to the days I remember as a child visiting my grandparents’ farm. I want to plant but it’s too early for most of the things I want to plant; most anything that blooms has to be planted in containers on the deck because of the deer.  Vince had some lumber delivered and I asked what that’s for . . chicken coop! Hmm . . I’m a bit confused about the chickens.

Maybe it’s that we had the whole week with Chad and even though it wasn’t hard when he left to go back to school yesterday, I miss him more than normal since we were together for 9 days.

On the other hand, maybe it’s because we were all together for 9 days and I need some amount of solitude.  Even though Chad and Vince were fishing, they were in and out of the cabin often except the one day they had a guide.

Whatever . . I hope I’m back to feeling like my old self soon!

Comments

  1. 1

    says

    It’s always hard to get back in the groove after holidays. At least you are getting your spring cleaning done, which will leave more guilt free time to sew. I do believe there’s a quiltathon this weekend, which I’m fully planning to participate in. We all need you to motivate us, so you’ll have to snap out of this funk soon…. hehe

    Enjoy the sewing break, you’ll come back to it when you’re ready and be refreshed and energized.

    Mich

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    says

    I have this same problem after being away from home………..its like I have to rebond with it so I clean. I’m glad to here all might not be lost concerning the chickens….I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you.

    Karen L

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    Linda H says

    Switching gears after a vacation is hard for me, too. Cleaning often works for me; it seems to be invigorating…mentally. Seems to clear out the cobwebs, in more ways than one. Can’t say it is physically invigoratingm though. :-p So, it sounds like the chickens might have a chance yet!

  4. 5

    says

    You’re just needing some down time. Not that cleaning house is down time! You’ve been going like a mad woman with getting the quilts for the book ready and all the other things you do every day. Why don’t you just take a couple of days and sit and knit or read some good books? There’s no rule that says you have to quilt every day!!!

    Hang in there, Judy. You’ll turn the corner very quickly! xox

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    dawn says

    your vacation sounded like fun and yes because you were all together for nine days you will miss Chad.Your body needs to adjust. what did I tell you about the vacation you need when you get back from vacation? LOL
    relax until you get into the swing of things again. it takes a while especially if it had been a while since your last vacation. Our minds and bodies need rest every once in a while.good luck with the chickens again……..new meaning to Spring chickens! ha ha
    rest up and we will all be waiting here to hear about your adventures , you tell the best stories!
    Dawn in MA

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    says

    You are doing the right thing – listening to your body, listening to your heart. Perhaps, a nap or a long walk would help, too. There”s nothing wrong with changing your pace. Vacations can be tiring. They take us out of our routine. Take care!

  7. 9

    says

    I think you’re right…it’s spring fever. I’ve had the same feeling. Can’t seem to focus on any one thing for very long. I seem to flit from one thing to another this past week and end up not accomplishing anything much. I started washing walls and then abandoned that. Oh well…I’m sure it will pass for both of us and we’ll be our “normal” selves soon. Hang in there!

  8. 10

    says

    I think it’s a combination of all that you mentioned. Any ONE of those things would make most of us feel a bit out-of-it for awhile, but to have a few of them happen at once, would definitely take a toll. I think once you are a couple more days down the road away from all the “together” time, you will start to perk up….especially if you can get some really nice-weather days and get outside a bit. Is there any really nice outdoor place near you where you can go and just walk around for awhile? Funky moods come and go, I believe….and it won’t be much longer before you are posting us about all kinds of things you are doing that are fun.

  9. 11

    says

    Can you send the cleaning bug over… There are 2 adults in my house hold that need to catch that one. :o)

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    Linda (Petey) Fritchen says

    Judy,
    Blessings! Confusion and restlessness…I think it’s spring fever and it is going around! Wanting to plant-yeah-that’s definately spring fever. We are having rain here so last evening I went out anyway and ‘planted’ some radishes. Well, sort of sprinkled them on top of the ground and said “Good luck…try to grow.” My legs are sore from putting out onion plants so those muscles will slow you down and help you find time to think and become reasonable again.
    You will soon feel like a new person and bloom again. Keep us informed.

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    pdudgeon says

    i agree with the rest, it’s just Spring feaver.
    Symptoms are picking up rugs, cleaning, longing for green, thinking of growing things, blue skies, and sunny weather.

    recomendation–spend time with your EQ and your fabric; especially the sunny grapefruit yellows, lime greens, brilliant blues,and yummy oranges.
    there’s a new quilt down in your basement calling out to you–
    ‘Come make me, Judy!”

  12. 14

    says

    Judy, I think what you’re feeling is normal after a vacation. It will take you a few days to get back in the groove. In the meantime, try to relax. Look at the bright side – after all the heavy, deep cleaning you won’t have to worry about it for a while!
    Take care, Karen

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    says

    OH my – been there, done that … seems very hard for ME anyway, to just sit, be quiet, and accept the ‘feeling’ – whatever that is. Sometimes we need to experience the unsettling feelings, coming from wherever they come from. A lot of us sewists, are so darned busy – a good thing most of the time because we take pride in our accomplishments, but it’s also a good thing to be quiet and introspective. Sometimes, for me anyway, that ‘instrospective’ part is scarey. but also necessary.

    Not sure if any of this is helpful. Sit down, have a glass of wine, and enjoy ‘your view’ for an hour or so. 8-)))

    Now, I DO hope you are not affected by this terrible weather! News this AM was NOT good for a lot of folks.

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    says

    I think your inner farmer is coming out of the closet and won’t be put away any more! Yeah! I miss the country dreadfully as well Judy, but I’m finding that by doing many of the things I did on the farm on our little 5 acres, even though it’s miniature in scale, really, really helps sooth my soul.

    I have to stay away from farms, when we visit one I feel like my heart might break, but as long as I plotch around building gardens and what not, I’m okay. Get some chickens. Put in some square foot beds. Enjoy the satisfaction of working the soil and growing/raising some of your food. Plant a little extra for the wildlife. There’s a lot of peace to be found sitting on the edge of a garden bed at sunrise, with a steaming cup of coffee and the sound of birds chirping all around.

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    Tricia says

    I LOVE that you sat at your sewing machine…just SAT! I thought maybe I was the only one to do that!
    Are you zoned for maybe just 2 little chickies? Just a couple would not require nearly as much work and could easily be looked after by a neighbor child when you travel. This way you could have the fun of them without all the headache…maybe!
    Hope you feel like NOT cleaning again soon!
    Tricia

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    says

    That is a theme I’ve seen cropping up quite a bit lately. Lettie at Polkadot Pineapple felt the same way coming back from her vacation recently. Maybe it’s the transition from one season to another. Personally, I blame it on the whole time change thing; I don’t think my body has adjusted yet.

    Like everything else, though, this too shall pass.

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    Norma in Baton Rouge says

    Judy, I think you just miss Louisiana in the springtime! But if you come, you better get here fast. We’re hitting 80 degrees most every day now. Having missed the best part of spring all these years because I was working, I’m loving the spring weather we’re having now. The flowers are all in bloom and my husband planted 8 tomato plants this week. Just plan to get on down here to visit your family. They miss you, you know.
    Norma in Baton Rouge