This post isn’t meant to make the reader sad, but hopefully to lead us all to think about where we are in life and potentially, what our future might hold.
The other day I was out in the garden and I was spreading mulch and the thought occurred to me that the old girl isn’t what she used to be! That isn’t the first time I’ve thought about it but there are things I could once do easily . . like getting up from sitting on the floor, or unscrew a very tightly fitting lid, and those things, among others, present a bit of a challenge these days. I’m getting older . . we all are.
While out in the garden, I was thinking how much I love being outside and working in the garden on a warm, sunny day; especially after a cold, blustery few days; how much I look forward to spring and being able to plant the tiny little seeds in the freshly tilled ground, and then watch them sprout and . . too often get eaten by grasshoppers!The anticipation, and watching new life emerge is invigorating. Even when I have a year like last year and the garden hardly produces anything, I still find so much joy in planting those seeds, waiting and watch for them to sprout.
Vince and I have been talking about retirement locations. Will we stay here . . for a while or for the duration? Will we move closer to Chad? Will we move to some beach community? There was one location we had thought about and I began researching houses that were on the market . . not that we’re ready to buy, but just to get an idea of what’s out there now. I was struck by the tiny little yards . . which is what most elderly folks probably want.
Then, when I was out in the garden, I realized . . I am not always going to have this! Maybe I will have this location but I may not have the ability to get out and garden. For a minute, it made me sad but then I realized, it’s just another season of life. Just as the seasons of the year, there’s a time and a purpose for everything. I am thankful for so many things. Mostly I am thankful that I have so many things in my life that I enjoy, so many things that bring me joy. Not just “things” but the ability to have a garden, to plant that seed, to see it sprout and hopefully produce some vegetable that we love; to have a small orchard and anticipate those first peach blossoms, and then the juicy, ripe figs; the chickens running around chasing bugs, seeming to not have a care in the world, farm fresh eggs every day – often eaten the same day they’re laid. Even though I can’t yet pet Cat, I get pleasure in calling out to him as I’m out and about and knowing he’ll make his presence known when he’s good and ready.
On cold, dreary days, I’m happy to sit inside and knit or sew or cook. On pretty days, I’m happy to be outside, often just piddling and not accomplishing much . . except enjoying all nature has to offer (excluding cedar pollen — I do not like that at all!).
I am thankful that I live in an age of cell phones and video chatting. I was thinking of when I was a teen or young adult and would call my grandma. She knew that we were paying for long distance by the minute and she was always so quick to get off the phone, even though my parents were paying for the call. Now, most of us can talk for hours on the cell phone, with no regard to any added cost. Addie and I can video chat almost every day. Just yesterday, she wanted to video chat with me. She wanted to show me her new music box. Just a couple of minutes and she was done. Back when I was a child, I would had to have written a letter to my grandma, and described it to her, and I probably would not have taken the time to do it. These days, we’re so much more interactive in the lives of our loved ones because of cell phones and video chatting.
If my life ended tomorrow, or if I’m suddenly unable to do the things I love, and I hope it doesn’t happen, I can look back and say I’ve had a wonderful life, I’ve experienced so much, I know what it takes for me to be happy and I am living the life I love. Whatever my future holds, I hope I can always see the bright side.
I would encourage you to take some time to think about where you are, where you will be in a few years, where you’ve been, the experiences you’ve lived. Even though some of us may not be where we want to be, or life may be more difficult than we wish, we all have so much to be thankful for. It can be easy to dwell on the negative. I think being positive takes a little practice but once you get to where you see the good, even in the midst of bad — that can be life changing, in a very good way.